This last week has been a really busy one. I’ve had so many appointments as I am faced with the possible return of my sarcoidosis, which I am now taking steroids until the results come in. I’ve been catching up with work and trying to meet deadlines for current collabs. I’ve been planning upcoming posts and scheduling those, it really has been a manic week!
One date this week that I will never forget is the 1st of October. Four years ago from this date was the day my husband lay on a theatre table and underwent his heart transplant.
Four Very Precious Years On
If you are not a regular reader then you can catch up here on my husband’s heart transplant story. I often sit back and think right back to when it all happened. It still feels as though it was yesterday. The deep feeling of worry in the pit of my stomach, consumed with anxiety to the point where I felt sick not knowing whether my husband Craig would pull through this massive operation.
Embracing my what was then ‘baby bump’ not knowing if Craig would even meet our unborn son. I still get tearful now at the very thought of it all. It was the scariest rollercoaster of emotions that I have ever had to deal with in my entire life.
“You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have”.
Having to see Jayden’s little face as he watched his daddy getting thinner and thinner. Month after month of not having daddy at home anymore and asking if his daddy’s heart would be fixed soon. And then….whilst my brother and I were sitting with Craig at his hospital bedside, our transplant team ran over and said ‘those words’. The words that everybody on the urgent transplant list prayers for on a daily basis. Those words were ‘We have a match!’.
Again another array of emotions came over me. I was happy, relieved, excited, thankful! I was scared shitless for Craig, scared for myself and what was to come. I was sad, for the family of the donor, knowing that somebody had to say goodbye to their loved one. I was so very grateful, for their brave and selfless decision to help somebody else during their time of sadness and grief.
Four years have passed by so quickly and we have made the very most of every single day! And will continue to do so in honour of our donor.
Happy 4th heart anniversary to my husband, my best friend, my soul mate. May there be many many more to follow. x